the way you look at me

How could I forget the way you looked at me

I can't forget so condescending confident and self-assured you could do anything

Now when I look back at how I tried to please you

All that work didn't even impress you

How bout we change up our situation

How bout we evaluate our circumstance

How bout you walk away leave me alone

How bout you don't look at me no more

How could I forget the way you look at me

You look at me the same way now. And yet we changed your standards are higher and I can't reach

But I know better and your eyes they can't bewitch me

You ain't the ish so please don't ish me

You pulling me on your string for far too long

I did what you said but it was all wrong

I finally decided to value me

So please don't look at me no more

CNM  April 14th 2011

I wrote this song in response to a dude. If you know me well enough you may know who this dude is. I think he knew that I liked him, so he used that to get me to do things for him. Whether he knew or not, it was quite disturbing. Now, that I look back, I was quite the little puppy. Wanna biscuit? Even when I was with a dude, I was so sprung that I still did stuff for the same person. Last year, the same dude asked me to do something while I was in a foreign country. I honestly couldn't do it so I didn't do it. In the past, I would have beat myself up for not being able to do it but I know better now, and the guilt does not oppress me anymore. I'm different from what I was before.

"That's all I have to say about that." - Forest Gump