Better

I sang that in the shower a couple of days ago. I don't remember why at the time. I remember thinking, "It's time to come back to God now." Motivation for the greatest songs. I think God wants us to desperately need Him as much as He needs us. Now you may say Jesus is not dependent upon man so he doesn't need us but I disagree. One may say that a need is defined as something you may die without. He died. Nuff said about that. I don't need Him or realize I need Him as much as He needs me. I"m tired. I would like to keep up the blog but I'm tired. Until I'm better....

Standing Still

No more facebook!!! It's the most depressing device in the world. So and so is married. This person is working. This person is going abroad! This person is making music videos! This one is going off to the army! What you doing Camil? Nothing! Diddly Sqwat! Want to cry but I'm not hurt by it. Just regretful, you know that passive crap that I do. Almost as passive as the nothing I do. Crap!!! What did I do in college? or High School? Did I get nothing to prepare for this? Crap! I feel so empty!!! I'm too old for this indecisive crap and yet I'm too young to make the proper decision. Well screw me. I'm officially saying goodbye blog. One day I'll learn to shut my mouth and focus my energy on something more positive and proactive. I can't believe how unfulfilled I feel right now. Crap.Facebook can burn because quite honestly I'm not even looking fulfilled and or ready to conquer the world. But that's going to burn anyway. I don't believe how selfish I have become. I didn't use to care about this material crap. Now that seems to be every other post. Super worldly now and yet I still have no power. Screw me, I'm going back to Jesus! At least He makes some sort of sense. Why reinvent the wheel?
I'm trapped be tween what I want to do and what I need to do.

Lord, make me better!
Bound by this fetter
lust desire and want
Frankly it's not what
I really wanted so please make me better

Oh Lord make me better
Out of the rain in to your shelter
Please just let me in
And take away this sin
it's really got me You can make me better

Eraser of the Past
Bringer of Tomorrow
You can make it last
Take away my Sorrow
You know what's in my heart
You know that it's too dark
You can bring the light and you can make me better

Where can I run
If you're not the one
What can I do
If there is no sun
Rejectors of your grace
come seeking your face
Change my life Please make me better

You can make me better
You can make me better
You can make me better
You can make me better

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eNhz8BMTqsk