Men: Outlets for Hope

I had a dream this morning in which a male friend of mine admitted his feelings for me. I, of course, kissed him ( not in that order) but while the dream was nice, it was disturbing and for this to be the first dream in a while that I remember when I wake, I was troubled by it. I have never pictured this male in this way. I believe this dream is a fleshy kind and speaks strongly of my carnal nature. While nothing bad really happened, I have recently been training my self to not ponder the future especially when it comes to men. I tend to put my hopes in these dreams and fantasies and while they are not bad, pondering these things strengthen my hope and trust in these events occurring for real. But the Bible says

 “Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,

And whose hope is the LORD.
For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters,
Which spreads out its roots by the river,
And will not fear when heat comes;
But its leaf will be green,
And will not be anxious in the year of drought,
Nor will cease from yielding fruit.”

Jeremiah 17:7-8

So I find that this dream is just fostering something else for me to hope in. There are things that  I have decided to forego because I know certain men in, which my mind has fostered hope in, will be a motivation. I do not want that to be my motivation so I pray that my motivation is only to please God and not myself. Which is why I forego. For example, I have decided not to take the medical missionary 10 day course because I am sure some man will be there and now I have to forego something else because the guy in my dream will be there. Sad story! My motivation was so far from putting my hope in a future with this guy  but that dream has changed the motivation  a teensy tiny bit. LOL. I am not going to forego these events. Unless the hope still shows itself to be reinforced as time progresses but I believe if I pray for God to help me to abide in him and not to foster hope in these men, I'm sure He will do it. Another reason to pray is also for those who have fostered hope in me. I believe I have been acting in a mean way towards a guy so hopes will not be fostered. The big problem is that I don't remember praying about the situation and without even trying I just got  an attitude with dude for no reason. Funny thing is that I did not even notice it until he told me that I was having an attitude with him. The real funny thing is that a lot of that meanness is who I am. Only after coming off the phone with him did I finally put all the pieces together. My  automatic reaction was just to be mean. Now if I had prayed about it, I could have treated the situation differently but without prayer, I was left to rely on my mean habits and attitude. This is what I have deduced: Never stop praying 1 Thess. 5:17 because there will always be other outlets for your hope. Abide in Jesus, the only hope.