Calling All Risktakers

I recently prayed a prayer. It went, " Lord, reveal to me how I must witness."  Like I have previously stated, I have a burden for souls but no courage or direction. Now, it is important that I tell the events that lead up to the answer of this prayer the day after I prayed this prayer. It was a Saturday night and I had just heard a sermon about how the revival of primitive godliness is needed. I was convicted that I completely lacked in the witnessing area. So I wanted God to show me how and in what way I should witness. About 2 weeks before that, I read that the home religion is very important and that we should first witness to those in the home. Continuously, I had been praying that God would help me to show love to my brothers. Now, my diabetic aunt would pass through my mind, but my mind would quickly breeze pass her. Interestingly enough, I would do things for my aunt and I would mentally pat myself on the shoulder, as if I had done something great.  But to the extent that I would pray that I would love her? More? No that was too much for me. Unfortunately, I was too blind to see what God was trying to say to me. So back to the day after I prayed the prayer. My mother, my aunt and I came home from a walk. My aunt was speaking gibberish and I could not understand her so I left the situation for my mother to deal with. I'm afraid that if you thought of me as being more caring, this story will only further disappoint you. Later, she goes upstairs and lies down in my mother's bedroom. She has NEVER done that before and I was shocked to see her lying there. Apparently, she thought it was her room and she adamantly argued that point. Finally, my mother convinced her to go to her room. Later, that evening while explaining the situation to other family members, it became apparent to me that someone needs to take care of her. And then it was like a light bulb. It was like God saying, " This is the way; walk ye in it." I said "wow" out loud. But my mind processed what was happening and responded, " But I already do more things for her than other people that live in my house. " Not even finished thinking that, God clearly says it's not enough, like there is more required of me, like if Jesus gave up all, why can't I give up all? And out loud I had to say, " Alright, I'll do it!" Now, I must say that I am not always willing and able. Some times I wake up late. Sometimes I do not want to be bothered and I let her have some autonomy. Sometimes, I get frustrated when things do not go my way. Like last Wednesday, my aunt ate a random piece of gum and I was so on the verge of giving up on her. My mother was telling me that this situation is teaching me patience but I was so frustrated that I did not want to hear that. It sounds more wonderful and spiritually insightful now that I am not so frustrated. But I digress. I am not perfect and I screw up at times. But God is good and He is working on me and through me. But what if I had said no to God and decided not to take care of my aunt? I do not what would have happened but I do know that knowing that God is taking care of me is assuring. I do worry and ponder about the future sometimes but I want God to be in control. Right now, I am presented with a book that would cause me to doubt my faith but I'm trusting God as I read. I've also been presented with an idea for a teen bible study, which I have been thinking about for a while and to have it confirmed by someone else is amazing. I've also been presented with time to indulge in Bible Study. I intend to grab it by the horns and run. Giving your dreams, hopes, cares, wants, burdens, etc. to God is amazing, terrifying, difficult and freeing all at the same time. Just like any risk, there is some trepidation for those who are not risktakers but God is calling all of us to be risk takers who live all of their lives for Him.Take the plunge.